heaven knows we'll soon be dust

I hate stress. I feel like I constantly want to vomit. Joy.

The husband made a comment that totally melted me the other day, we’ve been getting along REALLY well lately (knock on some serious wood) and all these things keep happening that put us in a state of remembrance of when we fell in love, songs will come on the radio, movies will air, jokes will be brought up, and it will just put this glow between us, it’s been wonderful, well we were at my moms friday night and Brian was being super nice and friendly and my mom made the comment to him “it’s nice to see you two getting along so well” Brian smiled and said “I think we’re falling in love again, it’s a nice feeling” He never speaks this frankly with anyone, it was so good to hear something like that come from his mouth, and I agree with him, things feel brand new again like when we first were together, I love it, and it’s given me such hope for our marriage, I know now sticking through it was the best choice I could have made for myself and my son. 

I haven’t been posting much, we’ve been way busy lately, between looking for a house, making candles with the bestie, procrastinating on packing and raising a child, I feel like I haven’t had much time to myself, I’m not complaining, I went through that long, lonely period and I’m so glad to be out of it, it’s amazing how clear everything seems once the fog lifts in your life. For the first time in a very long time I can actually say “I’m happy.” and mean it. Brian and I are doing amazing, we still have our moments, but that just comes with the territory of being married, but overall we are in such a better place then we were just a few months ago, we communicate, we’re affectionate, we don’t fight or bicker near as much and in general I just feel such a sense of love from him that I wasn’t feeling before. Adam is doing amazing, we’ve signed him up for sports and swimming lessons at the Y, he is way excited and I am even more excited for him, he needs this. He does have to get tested next week to see if he needs speech therapy or not, the doctor seemed a little concerned, but he said it’s nothing major, but it will make preschool a lot easier on all of us if we have him evaluated and maybe worked with just to catch him up where he maybe should be. So things are good in our household, and I even admit, I missed the bestie more then I thought I did, having him in my life again reminds me of how much fun we have when we’re together, we’re such different personalities with the same mindset, however that works…it just does. We have these grand plans for making and selling candles, we eventually want to do craft fairs and farmers markets, it’s fun actually having a hobby, and really doing it instead of just talking about it. Life is good.

In 5 hours we will be looking at our first house of many. …wish the realtor would send the address already, getting antsy and I wanna snoop! Lol

Not ready to post this on facebook yet, but…..we’re meeting with a realtor today! We’re starting the “looking” phase! Squeeeeeeeeeee.

Taxes filed, added to the hubbys bank account (finally) and ready to roll!

Got our w-2’s today…it’s on bitches!!! as soon as we get that money, let the house hunting commence! yesssss! <3

I am so tired of being fucking bored, I just want our w-2 so we can do our taxes and move on with looking for a house, feel like I’m stuck in fucking limbo. O_o

The husband accidentally broke my pipe this morning! Nooo! Wah.